My Journal June 2, 2020 – Musings about privileges and other stuff

Log Entry Earth Time June 2, 2020, 11:30.00 am CEST

(When I started to write this down it was only meant to become a short post but it developed and I thought I could make a new blog post out of it.)

I hear so much about white privileges and I was thinking about them. If I have them and how the situation is in my country.

I am white but not an US citizen. I am European, German.

Let me tell you how I experience white privileges in my own country that has millions of so called refugees, asylum seekers. They are usually the only people with a different color and no I am not a racist whatever you might think.

When I need to go to a store to buy my groceries or other stuff I need for a living I have to wear a mask. Asylum seekers of any color don’t have to, they can enter the store without and nobody can do anything against it.

My son was over years riding his bicycle to go to work and so often the police stopped him and asked him why he is riding a bicycle and if it is his own, an asylum seeker won’t be stopped on his bike.

I am retired 10 years too early for health reasons with a small pension after I did my civil service for my country. Nobody was asking or acknowledging why and that

I got sick doing my service or if I can support my family and myself with the smaller income. I am not qualified for disability and don’t get other financial support from my country I served for, for over 25 years. An asylum seeker here has enough money for himself and his family without having worked one day and he has no worries about making a living. He goes to a doctor if he is sick and all amenities are already paid for, electricity, rent, heating, water etc. I can see a doctor too, of course, but I have to pay for the bill, I get some state subsidy, 70 % of the doctor’s bills, and have health insurance but I don’t send the bill to my insurance because I hope to get some money back when I don’t send them the bills so that I am able to pay for other necessary insurances that come up at that time of the year.

Many of the refugees that came with the Syria crisis – and not all came from Syria – are wearing good clothes, drive a good car and even lead a life without worries about finances, they can even go eating in restaurants, because they get the money from government.

My car is 12 years old, will be 13 in September and needs some new tires, last time I ate in a restaurant was, oh I forgot, it is too long ago.

No, I am no racist anyhow but I believe that I should be able to lead a good life too and I am even in a better situation like most of our pensioners who have worked their whole lives and live under the social minimum, white Germans, old Germans. Germans, those who are born here and whose ancestors have ever been German and lived here for centuries and millennia are slowly becoming a suppressed people because my government believes that refugees and other ‘asylum seekers’ have all the rights, they can rape our women without implications, they have money more than they need for a living without working a second for it. They have all amenities without paying for it. There are quarters in certain German towns now you can’t enter as a German because your life is in danger because there are too many refugees and asylum seekers living there and they don’t have any respect for those who pay the taxes from which all these amenities, subsidies and funding are paid for.

Am I a racist for what I think? No, I love humanity but I believe that those who are coming to my country should respect those who live here since millennia, that those who come here should respect our traditions, culture, religion and values, our families, women and children. I have friends worldwide from every color and I love each and every one of them.

It isn’t the color, it is the behavior of some people that makes me wonder if I am in the wrong movie.

I want people to live a good life and a safe life but each in the country they originate from so that my family, myself and my people can have a safe life too. I want peace and abundance everywhere so that people can stay in their countries to where they belong. I want an end to all the disrespecting, the exploitation of whole continents just for more profit for the extreme wealthy 1%. I want an honest and fair trade, a healthy health system, governments who work FOR the people and not against, police forces who protect people and don’t threaten them or kill them whatever color they are. I want the freedom to speak about truth and my beliefs without being marked a conspiracy theorist and I want this for all people everywhere. I want more tolerance and respect for life and nature and our beautiful planet. I want so much more than I can express here. I want an end of all the hate and I want more love to be present everywhere. And an end of divide and conquer and an end of people seeing themselves as special and better than others. To have a different color is a beautiful sign of the diversity on our planet. Wouldn’t it be boring if we would all have the same color, wear the same clothing, eat the same food, listen to the same music, drive the same car model, live in the same type of house and you can go on with this. It is the diversity that makes life interesting and look at all the different colors in your box of crayons!!!

It is the different colors that makes all so beautiful and vibrant!

And do I have white privileges or privileges at all? I am not sure if I have them in my own country.

What I am sure of is that only love can make our planet and all who live on her healthy and safe again. Love for ALL beings and all colors, may they be 2-legged, 4-legged, winged ones, crawling ones, in the water or air, trees and all other plants, minerals or any other elements. Don’t forget that this diversity is the treasure of our beautiful planet, a diversity other planets in our Universum would love to have.

pictures by me made in NM 2008

Can we not just love each other and end all the riots? Can’t we just end the separation and division only the ASSC is profiting from and nobody else?

The minute we let go our fears, anger and hate, the minute humanity loves and unites as ONE human race this nightmare and stupid game of the ASSC will be over, the healing will truly begin and our planet can be again the paradise she was meant to be from the beginning.

I am tired and I so want to go back to my true home, to my husband and twin, the one being I love most in my whole soul’s existence, my other half of my soul and energetic heart. I want to go home to my people and family and just rest.

I love you

All of you

Ineta, Goldenstar

Silverstar wants to talk too, so here he goes

Silverstar: my beloved is tired and I feel it in every cell of her body. It is not only lack of sleep but exhaustion of body, mind and soul due to her neverending energetic work. I am proud of her and adore her, for her courage to go back to Earth every morning to continue her work for our children. I let her go because I know her too well that she won’t stop it until it is done and our children are free again, free from the ASSC and those who work for them, knowingly and unknowingly. Why do I say unknowingly? Because too many people are still in deep program mode, they don’t know or refuse to acknowledge. They believe all is good and what their government officials and media are telling them is trustworthy. I don’t judge them, I love them instead the more because this is the cure and answer to what they need the most.

Isabel and I, we had some big relationship problems arising from when I tried to keep her back at home eons ago, out of my love for her but in the wrong way. I am so sorry for the words I spoke to her, making it all worse. I thought I had lost her forever when she left. I remember the pain in her face, the horror I had created, me, who I love her more than anybody else. We both have worked through it and are healing. I do my best to support her, heal and love her. In some moments her trust in me is a bit wavering but just for moments and how could I judge her for it? There is still some work to do in our relationship but we are on a very good way and this can wait until she can return to me. It won’t be too long now although I wish I could tell her more. I am avoiding any dates as in the past this has led to much confusion and misunderstanding. I am learning too.

From our end we are doing what is possible to assist and support you, but we are limited by your free will and your responsibility. You and with this I address all of humanity, you must wish to end this game, you have to work on this and unite in love and respect for each other. It is so close now even from your perspective, don’t give up now so shortly before the finish line.

I let my beloved go back to Earth every day as I know I can’t hold her and I have learned this lessons but I want her back and be able to stay with me in all eternity, to have her back in her rightful position as my Queen. We are with you and work behind the curtains to help you. Stay strong in your love for each other. And if you don’t do anything else than love, it would be enough because LOVE in itself is all there is and all that needs to be done to free yourself from the ASSC. For those who are new to thsi blog or her friend’s blog who created this term: the ASSC is the Anti-Social Social Club, former known as Those Who Don’t Have Your Best Interest At Heart TWDHYBIAH aka illuminaau-tghi, caba-aal etc. I vary the words a bit to avoid possible reprisals for my beloved.

You are all made from love, all made from the same energy of Source herself and truly ONE with her. Once you all have recognized this and can see this in each and everyone of you, you are free. There is only ONE of you, in a truly beautiful diversity of life.

Hasn’t one of my sons told you that what you do to another you do to yourself? He was and still is right with this because he knows that we are all ONE.

I love you, more than you know or can imagine



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